Tag: Solutions

AutoMAutist digital auti-coach pre-release!

AutoMAutist digital auti-coach pre-release!
No man can get rich himself unless he enriches others. (Earl Nightingale)
The basic dashboard for many years with Zigbee and REST server for neurodiverse parameters.

It is finally time to port the tool that has been quietly keeping my neurodivergent operating system from crashing for about fifteen years now. As you might have read in a lot of my other articles, I carry a few built in quirks that completely derail daily life whenever they are left unaccounted for. The first preview (milestone 1) is on-line, ready to be expanded to the entire suite of tools and algorithms for stuff that matters!

My internal sense of time is as good as zero. I know I am aging just like anyone else because time keeps marching forward, yet without daylight outside I could not guess the hour to save my life. This complete blindness to time comes with a wonderful trick where I can stand under a shower for half an hour and swear only ten minutes have passed. The exact same glitch happens while listening to music, gaming or travelling, leaving sunset as my only reliable clock.

That temporal void drops me straight into the classic alley of AuDHD madness, where I show up to an appointment either painfully early or grandiosely too late. Whenever my mind gets too full or overloaded, a thick mental haze slams the brakes on my punctuality no matter how hard I try.

The harder I push to be on time, the harder I fail and the less I like myself for it.

It is no coincidence that around the age of sixteen I started building systems to compensate for my weaker traits.

Getting out of bed for school was a daily nightmare, not only for me, though also for my grandmother trying to pry me out from under the blankets. I have never been a morning person, and the earlier the alarm rang, the deeper it dragged my entire mood state into the floor until I was practically crawling across the carpet. Was it the brutal mornings, the broken sleep or the endless nocturnal pondering while staring at the ceiling? Looking back, it was clearly the hyperactivity I had nowhere to put.

That morning misery drove me to engineer a staged wake up system. First came a small bedside lamp, then a brighter light and finally a 500 watt halogen floodlight aimed straight at my face, which during freezing winters was actually rather pleasant to wait for because of the heat it threw off. That beast was basically the only halogen lamp on the market back then, driven at blazing speed by MS-DOS while I was studying electrical engineering.

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Mapping internal mechanics (introspection) with brutal complex outside world systematics

Mapping internal mechanics (introspection) with brutal complex outside world systematics

The Architecture of Asymmetric Exploitation: A Forensic Analysis of Systemic Paradoxes

Abstract, This paper presents a formal cybernetic taxonomy of the systemic, architectural and socio-political paradoxes that manifest when a hyper-systemizing, neurodivergent (AuDHD) infrastructure architect interfaces with a rigid, capital-protecting institutional framework. Utilizing a longitudinal 14-year case study tracking the physical plundering of the pioneering custom Perl-engineered multi-factor authentication platform SesamID in Amsterdam in 2012, this analysis maps the subsequent cross-border jurisdictional friction, institutional ableism and retaliatory economic vectors that culminated in proxy employment termination. We examine how advanced cryptographic perimeters and proactive threat interception engines, such as TACO and Algoritm, become systemically invisible under the Paradox of Effective Cybersecurity, leading to hypervigilance burnout for isolated defenders. To break this destructive feedback loop and resolve the Paradox of the Modern Platonic Cave, where state registries mistake tokenized data projections for human reality, we introduce the operational framework of Project Existenz. By migrating universal human rights pillars out of corruptible, shifting political language and into a deterministic, low-power (0.1-Watt) immutable bitmask registry, Project Existenz establishes technical and personal sovereignty independent of state validation. This taxonomy serves as both a structural blueprint for the neurodivergent community and a forensic framework for specialized high-tech crime units investigating asymmetric digital exploitation.

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Understanding the Paradox of Tolerance

Understanding the Paradox of Tolerance

⚠️ NOTICE FOR THE COGNITIVELY FAINT-HEARTED

Warning: The following manifesto contains unbuffered exposures to Karl Popper’s paradoxes, raw Platonic geometry, and absolute, uncompromised honesty regarding human nature. It is structurally incompatible with individuals who prefer the cozy comfort of collective delusions, corporate buzzwords or newspeak and administrative inefficiency.

Read at your own metabolic risk.

The simulation is to be viewed at: https://gowildchild.github.io/Existenz/ where you can see the “paradox of tolerance” is in “automatic mode”, at the right circumstances.

Project Existenz: An Exit Route from the Paradox of Tolerance

It is quite ironic that you can spend your entire life being exceptionally good at solving everyone else’s problems, while your own equations remain the most agonizingly difficult to balance. We do not need to pin a clinical label of autism and ADHD on everyone to validate this reality, but it makes the processing loop not just exponentially harder, but significantly more complicated than a neurotypical mind could ever begin to fathom.

Since a very young age, I began calculating the universe in binary, but not binary as a simplistic sequence of ones and zeros. That would be far too trivial; an immediate end of code, goodbye, until next time. No, binary as an intricate sequence of spatiotemporal events that share the exact same mathematical signatures at the precise same coordinate. One of those internal gates was always locked tight, an isolated sector I called my inner child. Perhaps that is where the soul actually hides?

By the age of seven, my consciousness was already operating strictly through logical gates. This means far more than a basic on-and-off state; it is entirely position-dependent, and it allows for an OR condition. Yet, there are so many of these internal logic gates that remain vulnerable to yourself, gates that can be forcefully toggled by an external observer. It can also occur that certain operations are mutually exclusive, meaning they simply cannot happen simultaneously due to the rigid architecture, such as an XOR NAND gate.

In my quest to assign an objective meaning to these collisions, I was driven as a young boy into the massive works of classical philosophy, systematically devouring thousands of encyclopedias and volumes into my own processing matrix, also called the brain. Several of those books crawled out of the wartime past, a meticulous preoccupation of my father back then. Among those works was Karl Popper’s text, which breaks down the paradox of tolerance. To put it simply: the more tolerant you are toward the outside world, the more the active forces of intolerance will scale up. This is infinitely more fascinating than probability metrics and chaos theory crammed onto the exact same page.

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Existenz | Human Rights & Existential Survival in maths!

Existenz | Human Rights & Existential Survival in maths!

The Birth of Human Rights and Existential Survival in Mathematical Form

Modified: 2026-07-29 | Created: 2026-06-20
Research Project Proposal: PROJECT EXISTENZ
Subtitle: Stateless Event-Driven 128-Bit Matrix for Low-Power Existential Forensic Reporting/Recording
Principal Architect: Gunther Voet (existenz@xsrv.net)
Target Research Group: Distributed Systems Engineering / Applied Cryptography and Privacy Labs
License: Open-Source Non-Commercial Freedom (The “Pay Up or Face the Math” Enterprise Provision)
Section: Spatiotemporal Biometric Convergence (SBC) Introspection, Classical Harmony & Mathematical Rights of Nature

Available through GitHub: https://github.com/gowildchild/Existenz

See the graphical version of it in a crude simulator here: https://gowildchild.github.io/Existenz/

1 | The Written Word and the Burden of Inheritance

To read thousands of books in one’s youth is not a passive act of consumption; it is an intense, multi-layered absorption of the human architectural template and all the workings around it. When a neurodivergent mind undergoes this level of hyper-focused immersion, the texts of the ancient masters cease to be mere ink on paper, but they become a visible representation, a living, geometric grid inside the brain. I carry a profound, unyielding respect for Pythagoras, Plato and the long line of ethical thinkers who brought these words across the centuries to my mind. They gave me the tools to look at the absolute chaos of human society and recognize it for what it truly is: a broken equation.

But at what cost? Carrying this inheritance while navigating an unfair world is a heavy burden.

Since 2012, I have watched bad actors, corporate entities and thousands of targeted threats try to exploit my AuDHD (Autism + ADHD) intelligence. They plundered me from my lifework by stealing the hard disks from my server in a hosting center in Amsterdam and hiding it under the shroud of ableism. Not only that, but they looked at a hyper-systemizing mind and saw an asset to strip, dry, and plunder. They started to attack me through the internet again, since 5 years ago, because they saw a second opportunity, facilitated by a sleeping government.

When the physical world fails you completely and when the legal systems designed to protect you turn out to be nothing but flexible, corruptible words, you are forced into the deepest quest for inner introspection. You must look inside your own consciousness and ask: Where does absolute truth hide when humanity refuses to speak it?

2 | The Death of Philosophy and the Rise of the Extremist Void

Philosophy is not an academic luxury; it is the absolute, foundational ethical standard required to keep a civilization from devouring itself. For showing where moral standards should be to keep the equations in harmony. Yet, in our modern landscape, philosophy has been completely undervalued, mocked and even discarded. Because society has abandoned the grueling, honest work of self-reflection, an immense moral vacuum has been created.

You got to understand something very realistic. You cannot be a realist, while being optimistic and pessimistic at the same time. Just like human rights are not at the ideal line of bit-16, which would be absolute. There always will have to be a grey area, for those that try to destroy the fabrics of civilization.

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To be prepared or not be..

To be prepared or not be..

“Standing at several crossroads, without any clear routes, So many possible ways to choose, our choice will always be ambiguous.„

To be prepared or not to be,
That should not be a question.

Not enough sleep, stress and external sensory overloads affect several executive functions which makes it often (much) more difficult (or impossible) to focus, memorise, communicate, observe and understand what happens around us.

When this overloads the autistic brain, the fight-or-flight response kicks in delivering hormones that will replace the rational mind by raw and uncontrollable emotions, preventing the possibility to make well balanced and rational decisions.

This can have dire consequences for the future, especially when a choice is (immediately) required and none could be made, resulting in unwanted consequences that affect life.

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How I order paperwork structurally?

How I order paperwork structurally?

Now, this one is a heavy one to come out with, because it is something which I am entirely not proud of. Not only is structural order a necessity in every modern house, but it is also the only way, to be able to receive people in a “clean” environment, without getting the instant thought of being a caveman or worse. Paperwork can already make a huge difference in that setting.

Less clutter is less input and will provide more focus, upon the essential. Continue reading “How I order paperwork structurally?” →

How are you? Those dreadful words!

How are you? Those dreadful words!

It happens almost every time, when meeting someone I know and getting that first word which is Hi and I already know what the next question is going to be. It are those hidden rules of communication and social engagement, which are totally not hidden at all, but yet, not entirely understood. Because, depending on my answer to that question the rest of the conversation will either drastically change or it will just finish with a smile and a goodbye.. Continue reading “How are you? Those dreadful words!” →

How do I grasp time?

How do I grasp time?

There’s always a great pun with me and idioms about time. A lot of people say that time flies, every second counts, time is money and other taglines. That’s all too great, if I had any concept of time! Especially when someone says to me “wait a minute”, I get that smile on my face and instantly think: “how long do you want that minute to be?”… Continue reading “How do I grasp time?” →

Again on Rilatine! – medicine

Again on Rilatine! – medicine

This solution was already a few times under discussions by my previous two psychiatrists, to help me finding some structure back, but tried to push away this medicine for as long as I could, because of the bad experiences with Rilatine and Concerta around my 23 years old. Because of a huge structural needs, it was time to try this again… Continue reading “Again on Rilatine! – medicine” →

How to shower most efficiently?

How to shower most efficiently?

Showering is quite an important fact in life, we cannot disagree upon that and since I live alone, it has to happen economically, efficiently and ecologically; in short: to not waste too much water (and money) on a daily base.

Because I got no time concept, I can stand under my shower for ten minutes but also for an hour, depending how cold it is outside and maybe because the position of the planets with the sun, who knows?!

Basically, there is no real indicator of time in my bathroom, till it got me thinking for solutions. It didn’t only get me thinking how to shower most efficiently, but also if my showering routine was sufficient enough towards general hygiene.. Continue reading “How to shower most efficiently?” →